Your love is my drug!

Cliche much? Eh, could you blame me? For the first time in a long time I feel SO GOOD! I'm talking mentally and emotionally; mentally for always praising and praying for God to keep me sane and emotionally because of my babe. 

Today I got to meet his mother and sister and his little cousin through webcam and it made me feel super happy and complete. Almost like when you meet the family for the first time at the family dinner, except we live thousands of miles away so its a quick "Hi & Bye". It wasn't something like you see in movies but it was the best I could ever ask for. His mother is so nice and pretty and his sister is like a latina "Tyra Banks"! Not kidding btw! Ugh, I feel so bad for always posting when he makes me sad or upset but it's how I feel and this is how I vent without torturing him ... I tend to never shut up so this is me doing him a favor.

I still love him unconditionally though, he's my baby duh! I just get frustrated ....

If you ever read this babe, I know your not perfect because nobody is .. and I know we all make mistakes even myself. Just know that its the simplest things that make me feel so happy and so appreciated, that's all I ever wanted and you learning how to show me those things really make me smile. I'm a softy, and I'm also sensitive so I'm sorry for always giving you a hard time, just know that I love you very much and I can't wait to see you <3

Thank God for YouTube!

It may be just me ... but the simplest words or expressions just tend to catch my attention and just gets me to question and think to myself like .. "damn, really?" .. that's how he feels?
I'm not going to lie but ever since .. it's like his whole persona has changed. Yeah, he loves me. As I'm told by him, and I do see but there a things he used to do without a problem that nowadays it's a struggle .. same as to other things as well.
It bothers me because as much as he tells me he loves me and says the sweetest things its like I wouldn't depend on my future with it. There's not a day he won't tell me he loves me but here I am questioning him about our wedding, our future family, and our overall future. It's like I keep reassuring .. "babe, we're gonna get married right?" ....
Till this day I'm still scared to lose him and when words like "prenup" come up out of no where it just has me questioning like full circle .. earthquake wtf shift. Where in the hell did that come from and why the hell is that in your head, and why the hell would you think of something like that? As much as I respect a prenup and to prove I could care less about any money he seems to have now or 10 years ahead, I just think it's hurtful to throw that jokingly.
Maybe I'm just alittle bit sensitive as always right now but to all the men that read my blog. When your dating a girl DO NOT say & do things to her that you will eventually stop doing because she WILL notice and start question and or take offense to it.
God Bless the creator of YouTube, I'll be watching some diy's & tutorials to clear my mind.

Prenup .... are you serious?!?!
Honey we have the same 24 hours in a day, anything you make I can make myself if not better.
Wording is key, so watch it.